[ Jack is an emotional person but in the beginning he was much more confused and placid and learning about the world as it came to him. When he was upset it was intense and sudden, but it generally smoothed away into his calm acceptance of simply experiencing life and reacting as things came to him. But his fight in the other world against Michael started to make him vicious, to his enemies, and his death and loss of his soul really ripped apart his concept of self.
It's been a short and tragic life so far and being here has given him many things, but he's also vulnerable. He doesn't know how to fix things for Castiel who has always been a refuge for him, a parent who never gave him any less than himself. He's starting to see maybe he wasn't as perfect as he thought, and Castiel had an entire history that he never showed or told Jack. He's starting to think that maybe it wasn't wise of him to keep Jack ignorant, but criticizing his parents seems beyond him at this time.
Sam for example does know what he needs even if there is experience between them that hasn't happened. Jack gets enveloped in Sam's arms and immediately hugs him back, burrowing his head in Sam's shoulder like he is an actual child seeking comfort. He's only truly cried like this after he got his soul back, but there's a lot that has happened to him in a short amount of time.
He breathes because Sam tells him to and he clings. Castiel doesn't love him but Sam does. It's something. It's enough.]
He accused me altering his mind. That I forced him to love me when I was in my mother, and that's why he was loyal.
[ That is something that will haunt Jack even if he aggressively had denied it. The idea never occurred to him.]
I know he's very sad and depressed but he really thinks that of me.
[ Jack feels sorrow for Castiel and everything he's going through, he's been around him enough times to know that he is dealing with his own pain. But it's just such a hard line in the sand that he can't surpass.]
I didn't, Sam. I didn't do that to any of you.
[ If he was that person, he would have done it to Dean a long time ago, but it's important to him that Sam believes him.]
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Date: 2025-08-02 06:27 pm (UTC)It's been a short and tragic life so far and being here has given him many things, but he's also vulnerable. He doesn't know how to fix things for Castiel who has always been a refuge for him, a parent who never gave him any less than himself. He's starting to see maybe he wasn't as perfect as he thought, and Castiel had an entire history that he never showed or told Jack. He's starting to think that maybe it wasn't wise of him to keep Jack ignorant, but criticizing his parents seems beyond him at this time.
Sam for example does know what he needs even if there is experience between them that hasn't happened. Jack gets enveloped in Sam's arms and immediately hugs him back, burrowing his head in Sam's shoulder like he is an actual child seeking comfort. He's only truly cried like this after he got his soul back, but there's a lot that has happened to him in a short amount of time.
He breathes because Sam tells him to and he clings. Castiel doesn't love him but Sam does. It's something. It's enough.]
He accused me altering his mind. That I forced him to love me when I was in my mother, and that's why he was loyal.
[ That is something that will haunt Jack even if he aggressively had denied it. The idea never occurred to him.]
I know he's very sad and depressed but he really thinks that of me.
[ Jack feels sorrow for Castiel and everything he's going through, he's been around him enough times to know that he is dealing with his own pain. But it's just such a hard line in the sand that he can't surpass.]
I didn't, Sam. I didn't do that to any of you.
[ If he was that person, he would have done it to Dean a long time ago, but it's important to him that Sam believes him.]