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Your Name: Reid
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C H A R A C T E R I N F O R M A T I O N

Name: Sam Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Original or Alternate Universe: Original
Canon Point: I'm taking him from about halfway through Season 8, after 8x13 (before he starts the Trials but after they find the Men of Letter's hideout)
Number: 124

Setting: Wiki link
History:

One night when Sam was six months old, a demon came into his room and spilled demon blood into his mouth. The same night, his mother burned to death on the ceiling of his nursery. Because of this, his father raised him and his older brother Dean to be hunters: killers of all things that go bump in the night. Sam was forced followed this lifestyle until he turned 18 and decided to leave his family and try to live a normal, safe life at Stanford. All his efforts turned to dust when his girlfriend, Jess, burned on the ceiling of his apartment after one fateful hunt with his brother, just like his mother did 22 years before. This is what triggers the rest of the events of the show and Sam's history.

A lot of things have happened since then that changed Sam drastically, but here are the highlights. He died. Then, he was brought back to life when Dean sold his soul, and eventually went to Hell because of it. After loosing his big brother, completely overcome with grief, a demon called Ruby got him addicted to demon blood, which feeds off of the already existing demon blood in his system that was put there by the demon who killed his mother and girlfriend. Even after getting Dean back, he remained addicted, since the blood boosted his demon killing and psychic powers. While all of this is happening, the two brothers were told by demons and angels alike that a demon called Lilith was working towards starting the Apocalypse. They were told that she was going to break the last of the 66 seals which would release Lucifer from Hell. Sam sucked an entire demon dry after an angry and violent fight with his brother and went to kill Lilith, believing that doing so would prevent the Apocalypse from occurring. What neither Heaven or Hell told him was that Lilith was the 66th seal. So when Sam killed Lilith with his powers, he released Lucifer and started Armageddon, which was the ultimate plan all along.

Additionally what the angels failed to to tell the brothers was that each of them were destined to be vessels, the bodies for angels to posses and act their will on Earth. Dean was the vessel of archangel Michael - and Sam, Lucifer, the container of the devil himself. In order for angels to posses their vessels, however, the vessels themselves have to agree to being possessed, which neither of the Winchesters had any intention of doing. They and their allies fought hard to find a way to overpower or outsmart Heaven's plan, and all of their plans failed while several people died. Sam was the one who comes up with their final plan - he would say yes to Lucifer, and then take control of his body again at the last possible moment before throwing himself and Lucifer both into Hell, trapping them both and ending the Apocalypse. It was completely impossible - but it worked. Seeing his older brother triggered a reaction deep within Sam, drew a strength out that he didn't know he had - and he overcame the Devil himself.

He was in Hell with Lucifer and Michael, who he also dragged with him, for a year in a half - which was well over a few hundred years with the way that time ran in Hell. His ally and friend Castiel, and angel, tried to save him, but managed to bring back only his body and not his soul. His body was a human without a moral compass, and he hunted ruthlessly and completely lacked the empathy and heart that made Sam who he was. After Dean made a deal with the horseman Death, his soul was returned to his body, but without any memories of what he did without a soul or any memories of Hell. He was warned many times that having those memories returned would result in a mental breakdown, and Castiel eventually broke the "wall" in his mind and returned those memories to distract the Winchesters from his own plans. Because of this, Sam suffered extreme mental trauma through remembering all of his time spent in Hell.

He suffered visual and audio hallucinations, mostly of Lucifer himself, who tried to convince him that he never actually escaped from Hell. He managed to keep these mostly in check through self-injury while the Winchesters delt with an impending threat of man-eating Leviathans, but eventually his body gave up and succumbed to the hallucinations. Castiel returned, however, and "shifted" those memories so that Sam could function and took the psychosis onto himself. Back on his feet, he, Dean, Castiel and an ally demon called Meg manage to kill the leader of the Leviathans, but in the shockblast, Dean and Castiel disappeared.

Sam believed his brother to be dead, and after a year, settled into a relatively normal life again with a woman named Amelia. He left, however, once his brother miraculously returned from the dead and discovered that he was actually in Purgatory, where they discovered all monsters go when they die. Now that they were reuninted, they had a new goal: close the gates of Hell forever.

Personality:

Sam Winchester is a difficult nut to crack. After a lifetime of being considered a "freak" by both his peers and his family, and well as his contamination of demon blood and his former addition to it, not to mention the fact that he unintentionally started the Apocalypse, he has a hard time believing he's worthy of anything. Despite this, he still risks his life for the safety of others and is active in trying to save lives.

Growing up, Sam was considered the "rebellious younger brother", and is still so in many ways. He wanted to escape the hunting life he led and successfully did so for a few years, with much conflict with his family for doing so, especially with his father. But he sticks to his guns and is unafraid of acting on the grounds of what he thinks is the right choice. This also ties into his stubbornness, which can sometimes get him into trouble, especially when his choices are sometimes rash and emotion-based instead of thought-out. While Dean is sometimes seen as the more impulsive of the two, Sam can act rashly at times, especially when his brother's fate is involved.

His brother, Dean, is the center of his world. Dean fills many different roles in Sam's eyes: caretaker, father, brother, hunting partner, best friend. Sam looks up to Dean a whole lot, but he is unafraid to confront him when he disagrees with something Dean does. They fight like brothers do, but Sam's love for Dean is unwavering and very evident by the fact that it was his memories of loving Dean that allowed him to defeat Lucifer. One of the worst things that Sam can do, in his own opinion, is disappoint Dean. He visibly breaks down when Dean tells him as much, able to face the rejection and torment of just about the whole world that's telling him he's a monster, except for his brother. Sam is usually fairly reasonable, optomistic and calm during most situations, but when his brother isn't alive, he goes off-kilter. When he lost his brother the first time, he became an addict. Dean says many times how much he needs Sam to go on living, but Sam needs his brother just as much, if not more. Sam is capable of living and functioning on his own, but if his brother is threatened, Sam becomes murderous. And when Dean is dead, he becomes suicidal.

One of his emotional issues that he struggled with greatly was his anger. Although Dean is a bit more quick to anger, Sam's anger is simmering and takes a long time to boil, and when he explodes, he loses control very quickly. A lot of his anger compounded due to his grief of losing Dean and his addictive need for demon blood. It's because he let his anger and need for vengeance continue that he eventually killed Lilith and started the Apocalypse. Since then, he's gotten better and not letting his anger control him, though partly that's due to the fact that he believes he deserves most of what's dished out at him after starting the end of the world. Seeing his anger is fairly rare nowadays, but when it appears, it's as explosive as it ever was, and Sam has no qualms of holding it back once he lets it out.

Sam is considered to be the foil to Dean in a lot of ways. Sam is usually interpreted as the more sensitive of the two brothers, of both his own emotions and other people's, while Dean is the smartass who hides his emotions. He's more willing to sit down and talk something out, and he sees the world in more shades than black and white, unlike most hunters. He's also frequently considered the "geek" of the two of them, since Sam is adept at research and even got a full ride to university when he was young. Don't underestimate him because of these traits, however: he's been trained his entire life to kill, and he is very good at it. He knows just as much about hunting as Dean does, and that includes how to use various guns and weapons. If a creature is killing other humans, grey morality or not, Sam won't harbor much guilt over killing it. Despite rebelling against the way he was raised and acknowledging that he was psychologically different to the idea of killing because of it, Sam will kill monsters who are killing humans without blinking an eye.

Sam has made it clear several times how staggeringly low his self-esteem is. He doesn't make it evident often, more focused on getting the job in front of him done, but when he breaks, he breaks hard. He is shown to be willingly suicidal several times, especially when he can save people in the process. He says that his time being tortured with Lucifer as a way to "clean his slate", as if Sam deserved to be tortured in the first place, and even now thinks he hasn't completely made up for what he's done, considering he was willing to die to save the world again, while saying that he deserved to due to all the mistakes he's made. Hardly anyone has done or said anything to him to suggest otherwise. When he continues to live, it's because he can't leave his brother, and because he thinks he can still help people by being alive.

At the end of the day, Sam wants to help people, and being a hunter is the best way he can do that. He's given up on the idea of living a normal life, and he's suffered tenfold for his mistakes, and in a lot of ways he still thinks he's not enough. All he really knows is that if his brother is by his side, then everything will eventually go on and turn out alright.


Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations:

Abilities: Sam is well versed in all manners of weapons, including guns, knives, machetes, rifles and a few supernatural-based weapons as well. Sam is also particularly adapt at researching other ways to dispose of the supernatural. He's also shown to be able to hack computers and databases a few times. Being the huge man that he is, he is also physically capable of fighting hand to hand, and is remarkably quick despite his size. He is also very good at talking to people to get information out of them by being the "good cop", calmly listening and reassuring, and partly this is due to the fact that he really does care about other people.

Weaknesses: Since he's stopped drinking demon blood, he has no supernatural abilities of his own, making him an ordinary mortal human. It's difficult for a man of his size to hide or avoid objects being thrown at him. He will prioritize his brother over all else, which is sometimes a good thing, but because of this Dean is often used as a bargaining chip or bait that Sam willingly takes, which can cause their plans to fail and for people to get hurt.

Inventory:

- (1) his brown jacket
- (3) sets of button-ups
- (2) jeans
- (1) pair of boots
- Smith & Wesson Model 4006
- a pocket knife

Appearance: Played by Jared Padalecki

Age: Late 20s

AU Clarification: N/A

S A M P L E S

Log Sample:

Sam knows what it’s like to be alone. To be locked in an empty cavern, with nothing but your soul bouncing back against the walls. And he knows what it’s like to be afraid. It’s rare, nowadays, for him to be both. If he’s afraid, it’s because he’s not alone. Because Lucifer and Michael decide to carve into his ribs today, or because the monster of the week is breathing against his skin, or because he can do nothing but watch as Dean drinks himself to an early coma. He’s never alone anymore, in his head or in his body.

He is now. He knows it before he’s even truly completely conscious, how utterly alone he must be. He feels his hair floating in liquid, back and forth. He hears nothing but silence, pounding against his ears in the way only silence can. He feels something caught in his throat, noticing it almost absentmindedly at first. But then, he feels like he’s choking on whatever it is. He can hear his heartbeat speed under the pressurized water, and his eyes finally open –

Just to crash onto a hard, unyielding floor. He realizes at once that whatever was lodging his throat is gone, and that he’s not floating anymore, but at gravity’s mercy. He’s wet, and cold, and naked. He shivers, quick to snap himself out of his mental lull and take note of his surroundings, like he’s been trained to. He’s not trapped in a warehouse. He’s fairly certain he’s not in Hell. Somehow, neither of those facts make him feel better.

He shivers, crossing his arms, looking around the apparent medical bay for tools to escape, but before he can even make a move forward, the doors in front of him slide open. His shivers die down. Instead, something much colder takes its place inside of him. He knows how dread feels, too. He walks forward, anyway, but not before breaking off the edge of one of the examining tables, leaving a sharp, long shard in his hands. He grips it, steadying his feet. Whoever these people were, they probably made the mistake of assuming he’d come along calmly and without any trouble. They obviously haven’t heard of the Winchesters.

Comms Sample:

[video]

A lot of things have happened to me.

[ There's a man, remarkably tall with strings of dirty brown hair, sitting in a silver chair. The rings under his eyes are deep, and he squints somewhat, like a man trying desperately to appear focused, to not let his guard down. He's hunched over, making himself seem somewhat ridiculous in this tiny chair. He's dressed in a blue button-up and jeans, rather plain and inconspicuous, like he always has. ]

But I can safely say that being beamed into space isn't one of them.

[ He scratches lightly at his forearm. He looks out the window, as if he's reminding himself that, yes, that's space out there. He looks around his baren room, looking for -- something. Then, he looks back at the camera. A moment passes. ]

Right now, I don't really care. I'm looking for my brother, Dean.

[ If he's more worried than he lets on, he has a remarkably good poker face, even though his disoriented haze. He furrows his brow, opens his mouth as if he's about to say something more, than thinks better of it. Instead, he leaves it at that. The feed shuts off. ]